[Хабр, help] Android developer. How to take the first steps?

Я хочу стать Android-разработчицей. С нуля.
Пожалуйста, укажите. С чего начать первые шаги?

Accordingly, such a question on my part is bad manners, which can cause a negative reaction and even a stream of jokes and insults.

Please come into my position and help by guiding me on the path. I’m not asking you to pity me or help me financially—I can handle it myself. For me now information is worth its weight in gold.

Now they won’t give me money for courses, but I can learn everything myself using information on the Internet.

I understand that I will always have to learn new things and understand new things. I am familiar with the peculiarities of the lifestyle in general that is associated with this profession, since my dad worked in this field until the end of his life, in November last year.

Many wrote “Google it and you’ll find everything yourself” and insulted me, instead of a structured answer. There is a lot of information and it tends to become outdated and I would not like to waste time, since in my situation it becomes less every day. In addition to all this, I lack any moral strength. I just need the right direction. No more.

I have no one else to support me on this issue. Please, help. The person who was everything to me has died, and I have no friends who could truly help. At all. Only pen pals, and then only on other topics.

The fact is that my father worked in the IT field for a huge part of his life and promised that after I graduated from school, he would also begin to slowly teach me everything, and now, so that my grades and academic performance were normal, he asked me to pay attention preparation for the Unified State Exam.

I am a homebody by nature, just like my dad. I have few hobbies, as such, but I do well at school and am confident that I can prepare myself and pass the Unified State Exam, without tutors.

My mother died before I started going to school, from pneumonia. Dad and I were left alone, but this does not mean that we only sat at home with him and did not go anywhere.

On the contrary, my father was always the initiator of various trips, trips to cinemas, cafes, he always spoiled me and bought me everything I wanted. If I see something on the Internet and show my dad, he will order it for me, be it pizza or something from cosmetics, since I really loved experimenting with it at home.

I didn’t even need all this, since simple communication with him was enough for me and I was happy when we played his favorite board games, because at that moment, dad behaved funny and joked. You could always discuss any topic with him. Since I have no friends, and I communicate little with my classmates (and only about academic issues), my best friend was my father.

He helped me with my homework, defended me when they tried to bully me at school, and I was able to continue studying calmly, getting good grades and showing them off to him. For me he was a superhero.

Unfortunately, in November, I lost him too. Dad died in my arms, at our home. Thrombus. Within a few minutes he was gone.

I didn’t stay alone, but moved to my grandmother (dad’s mother), but she doesn’t like me and doesn’t approve of the fact that I do nothing except go to school and sit at home, and now she swears every day, since I stopped altogether attend school and closed in on herself.
To put it mildly, my grandmother had a “Soviet upbringing” and she herself did not really like my dad since childhood. Their rare meetings always ended in swearing, which was provoked by the grandmother. She practically does not give me money and I am gradually turning into a chukhanka who cannot buy herself a normal shampoo.

For the last three months, I don’t even go to school, but I’m trying to prepare for the Unified State Exam myself. The teachers treated me with understanding and told me to come on my own when I thought it was necessary, but so that the math teacher would not forget about the Unified State Exam, she even agreed to study with me for free in her free time, as a tutor (algebra is my weakness)

Because of my nervousness, I developed stomach and heart problems. Hair began to fall out. For the first months, I couldn't sleep. The feeling of sleep was absent, as was the feeling of hunger. I simply passed out for an hour or two, from overwork and from the fact that I could not eat and drank only sweet drinks and my favorite tea.

Only now am I finding strength in myself and want to get out of this state in order to start living on, but unfortunately, I don’t have enough moral strength and I need outside support. I know what I want in life and what I will connect my life with, so I ask you to tell me and guide me.

Thank you for your understanding and for reading everything I wrote. I will no longer bother you with requests of this kind. I have no one who could help me in this direction. I need a little support so that I can go further on my own.